It's officially Friday morning and I'll be leaving for the airport sometime in the next few hours. I'm leaving from FCO airport in Roma to Zurich, Switzerland. I'm so stoked. I hope it'll be a good weekend. I planned this trip with my classmate Nick. We decided not to book hostels and we're driving the whole time. =O Yes we're nuts. Wish us luck as we drive through the Alps!! =D
I know it's going to be pretty cold there so I'll be packing plenty of blankets. Hopefully we find someway to shower though. Ew. No shower for 3 days =P. We'll see what happens and I'll be sure to take plenty of pictures while I'm there. We're hoping to hit up around 5 cities from Friday till Sunday.
Before I head off to bed I just have to vent a bit. I just got back from practice for RENT and I'm not gonna lie, I was embarrassed all throughout practice. I heard myself on a mic today for the first time and omg I wanted to cry. We are going to be using headset mics and the pack that we have to strap onto ourselves is kind of a trick to keep on. I'm so nervous and so far out of my comfort zone that after I saw my outfit I wanted to call it quits. Of course I won't do so because the show is in two weeks, but my character calls for someone who can be stripper sexy. In that oufit?! I can't do it. I basically have a bathing suit looking outfit that is pleather (black) in front and just pink netting on the back. Now when I say back.. I mean including my butt. I'll probably be wearing like boyshorts but iono. I felt like such a 5 year old with little frills on the front of the outfit. How can I be sexy and look like a 5 year old! So embarrassing. Lets just say the other two girls are pretty well endowed and have different outfits from me... Also the pleather shows like everything. I think for the first time ever, I thought to myself.. Jen you have to go on a diet. I don't remember when I was so embarrassed physically, vocally and mentally all at the same time.
I walked home in the dark after practice and I couldn't help but think how my director always says that if we laugh on stage, it's because we're embarrassed. If that's the case, I'm going to be rolling around laughing. sigh. Hopefully things work out. I just don't want to make a mess of myself and especially in front of a crowd. I'm the only one without vocal training which sucks to the max. What did I get myself into...
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Hi Jen...sorry to hear you are down. You've always come across as confident and classy on stage. You'll be wonderful, and i know that it is all in your head. Remember, when we are on stage, we become the character. The person preforming is not you anymore, it's a character we portray. Believe in the part in which you have been cast, obviously, the director has confidence in you, otherwise, I assure you he'd pull the plug on you if he felt you were not up for the task. In regards to playing sexy, confidence is the key...i am sure plenty of men have approached you thus far on your trip, make em swoon even more with you little outfit and flirt with the crowd. I know I'd be cheering in the audience if I had the chance to see you preform. ~domino
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